To ' desensitize' myself.

Hello,
My name is Holly Greenough, i am 14 years old and i live in the uk.
I have never written a blog before, but from many i have read, most people tend to write about something they are passionate about.
I love and hate many things, i mean its only part of being human, infact its a huge part of it, one person's love is another person's hate and vice-versa.Another huge part of being human is loving someone, im not just talking love/hate; im talking about being IN love with someone. Everyone says at some point in their life that they want to find " the one" or " their soulmate" but what i have come to notice is that we just cant find them at the young age that we are, it is statistically proven that a major percentage of boys have the mental age and maturity of someone two years younger than them,, which explains why i feel more ' on a level ' with the older guys of my generation.

" You just dont know the meaning of love at your age " : a frequently used expression towards the girls of my generation, well if it isnt love then why does it hurt? So much?
The feeling you get; That actuall sinking feeling you get in your heart,, the sinking feeling you get when you are rejected, or when that special someone starts going out with somebody else, or when your boyfriend breaks up with you because " the spark faded" < to me this is just an excuse instead of actually telling you that he got bored of the relationship.

I find that my generation and generations to come have became desensitized and will continue to become desensitized to the real meaning of love and how hard it is to get there because of the increasing amounts of teen chick flicks, im sorry to say it but number one there isn't always the cute guy with the sparkling smile and the even more sparkling personality and number two the girl doesn't always get that guy ( if of course; he does actually exist)
If only life was as it is in a teen movie, i mean if it was,i would still be the geeky nerd i am now,, who wears the skinny jeans and the slipknot t-shirts, who plays her music at full capacity and doesn't care what people think of her, the one who would secretly cry at night when nobody could see or hear her and then put on a brave face for her friends and family,, the one that was stiill hated by the school hierarchy and couldnt care less the one that finally got the really cute scene kid guy, with the cute smile and appreciated me for who i am,, whether im pretty or not, through thick and thin, for better or for worse, for richer for... What am i saying?! these are not wedding vows but i think you guys get the overall jist of what my life would be like in a teen movie.

Anyway, i think i have bored you with my raging for one blog,, let me know what you think because i want to write the very best i can, i want to make people laugh but most of all, i want to be able to relate to people and i hope i have related to many other teenage girls and maybe boys in this blog. :')
Holly out.................